11:11 p.m. - 2002-06-28
the crowd and self blame
the crowd
i see a few familiar faces in the crowd.
i try to smile and wave but then stopped.
they are in the crowd, and i am here.
with the guillotine and the judge.
self-blame
blame yourself, dun blame others, he said.
so i said, you're only saying that because you want me to hate myself and commit suicide in a fit of depression.
you're only saying that because you can't come out and punch me right now. you can't even come out and kill me with your fists. only your words. and what's less.
